formless as a memory 
identity lies perched on the horizon 
distant place within myself no other may journey 

glimpses of the past glimmer within the mists of lost knowledge 
indecipherable guide to future's path 
and I am terrified 

who is this that walks upon ephemeral shores 
a stranger in my deepest confidence? 

where lies the boundaries of sanity and wisdom within these shrouded depths 
can I reach them? 

who can guide me where... they... have not been 
teach me what ...they... have not learned... 

for ignorance 
a danger unbidden 
threatens a world I have yet but wished for 

shall I fight with weapons I cannot be sure I hold 
combat lies with a language I cannot voice? 

in dreams I reach for truth and the trees answer 

but when I awake... 
the world is covered in grey and my feet 
once more cannot touch the ground 

~ 5/10/2000 ~